The Bipolar Otaku

So, I had another doctor's appointment today. I talked about what happened in the last four weeks... the bachelor party, the wedding, being home for 3 weeks, working nearly 100 hours last week... and among all that, she decided to ask more questions about two things...

The second one was about working last week, about which I said that I felt manic, but without the intensity, which basicalyl said to me that I think I was in control...

But the first one bothered me. Of course, she asked about the wedding. How did going to it make me feel? And my feelings beforehand were directed not at the bride or groom, but the grooms ex-girlfriend. Yeah, the german girl. The one I call the ex-nongirlfriend. Her. So of course I say this. About how we keep in contact once in a while, which of course means that I intiate contact with her, find out how she's doing. How in the past this meant taking a day to go to the symphony once a year. How we always say we should keep in contact. How we never do. Actually she never does. And then came the kicker... She actually recommended that I ask her out again. That I should press the issue. And find out one last time if the relationship could actually work. I spent the last three years keeping in contact with her trying to make sure I'm over her. I should do what? Just for the little sense of closure?

I just don't know how I should feel about that suggestion. Nor what I should do about it.