The Bipolar Otaku

When I told someone to call me the other night, I really ought to remember I told her that to make sure she felt okay. It was an invitation for her to remember that she is loved; it wasn't meant to be an invitation for her to remind me that I am loved. I wanted her to call me for her sake, not mine, so I ought to remember that I have no reason for disappointment when my phone doesn't ring.

I can only saw what I ought to feel. Real feelings go wherever they may. Just because I ought to have picked up a clue a long time ago doesn't mean that I have picked up that clue. I ought also to know male-female friendships don't need to be romantic, nor will all friendships be intimate.

But then again, maybe if I had the courage to actually ask her out, maybe I'd find out that my assumptions are wrong. If only I were in town to actually ask her out...

All that I am absolutely sure about and very much clued into is that she needed prayers, and that is one thing I can and will offer her.