The Bipolar Otaku

I've been implying it for a while, but I seriously need to change some things in my life. Basically, I need to learn to downgrade. I'm going to learn to live with a lot less materially in order to gain a lot more spiritually.

I had been thinking about learning to deal with less, by doing things like fasting and such, but now I'm forced to question those intents. Likewise I had thought about going back to school and getting a much lower paying job, maybe as a teacher, but now I think I'll have to step back and question that intent too.

I set up an appointment with a new doctor, just a general practioner. I'll ask for a referal to a allergist/asthma specialist, and maybe for a sleep specialist since I don't think I'm sleeping well at night. I know I do this because I'm forced to recognize that I can't just live for my own personal intents, as altrustic as they may be, but for others as well.

On the other hand, I'm not planning on going back to psychiatrist/psychologist. I know that at the time, my pdoc was what I needed, but right now I'm not so sure.

The part that bothers me is that I jump to all these conclusions without even knowing for sure that there is any mutual interest. But then again, all I've really decided was that I have to reconsider my life, not that I have already changed my mind on anything. Maybe I won't have to make up my mind by myself, though. :)